Phil Wickham - Battle Belongs

When my grandma passed away, I was devastated. My aunt Nanay Inday sent this song to our Group Chat "Battle Belongs" by Phil Wickham, but at the time, in my grief, I couldn't fully grasp its message. All I could think about was how much I wanted to be with her, to hug her, and tell her how deeply I appreciate everything she’s done—how she’s raised me, protected us, and taken care of our family. The distance between us filled me with a deep ache, and a sense of guilt began to settle in. I felt guilty for not being able to spoil her, to give her everything she deserves as a way of reciprocating the immense love and effort she’s shown us, especially to Mom.

But then I think about how my aunt Nanay Inday and Mom were able to give her those experiences—the travels, the moments of joy—and deep down, I know that she was truly happy because of them. Still, there's a part of me that wishes I could have given her those experiences myself, to show her my love in that way. Yet, at that time, I was still trying to build myself, still working hard to make ends meet. It weighs heavily on me, knowing I never had the chance to give her what she truly deserved or show her how much she meant to me in my own way. But now, it’s too late, as she’s gone.

Fast forward to 2024, I listened to this song again, and it hit me differently. This song is more than just worship—it's an intimate moment with God. It speaks to the heart when you feel defeated, hopeless, and like you can't go on. In those moments when words fail and all you can say is, "Help me, God," this song says it for you. It's incredibly powerful and sincere, a reminder that even in our hardest battles, we’re not alone. Listening to it now reminds me of my grandma's love and God's presence, and how both carry me through even when I feel weak. Just feel the song—it takes you straight to the peace and strength you need.

Battle Belongs